It feels so odd to be going from sand and sun to sweatshirts and fallen leaves.
But so very good!
The windows are wide open, a pumpkin spice candle is burning, there is a creamy potato soup in my refrigerator, and our first box of hot chocolate is almost gone already. Ahhh..
I feel like I can breathe.
And I need some more tissues because my nose keeps running.
We are getting back on schedule here - today was our first full day of school in a couple weeks.
I think we are going to make it in the homeschooling adventure. We've got a whole month under our belts and although there were some days I was screaming (in my mind) WHAT HAVE I DONE! Already I may have said it out loud too. There are other days that my heart is filled up with joy that I can watch her face light up with understanding.
There is so much to teach them, I get a little dizzy when I think about it. One week at a time....
This week we are doing "fire safety week" Did you know it was national fire safety week? Well - there you go.
A. has a panicky fear of things catching on fire ever since I let her watch a Christmas movie last year that had a fire scene at the end. So this is going to be good for her - it also means this year my smoke alarms are actually going to get new batteries this year.
On our trip I took the girls to an art gallery/museum.
It was amazing.
For me it was like suddenly waking up. I wonder if you know what I mean.
Like you just know that you belong where you are and things make sense.
I couldn't stop talking - I was like .. "look at this , do you see this kind of painting it's a landscape...This is a portrait because it's subject is a person... This was done with a pencil it's called a sketch...stop rolling around on the floor and come look at this... we can't do ballet in in the gallery" ( well they are 5 and 3 )
I wonder why I stopped giving myself permission to pursue those things that make me feel alive. I guess I've been so busy making sure my kids are taken care of and my "homemaking" responsibilities are checked off. I forgot....
Well I am making myself a promise
I love feeling alive and free, I'd rather be awake then sleepwalking through my normal routine.
Leonardo Da Vinci said
"When once you have tasted flight, you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return."
I get that..
So I'll put the question out there
When was the last time you felt awake to life and like everything was in focus?
what were you doing?
Can you live your daily crazy life and still make time for what your passionate about?