struggle - daily, moment by moment.
That is the theme of my week. Just being honest.
At night I lay in bed just grateful to have made it through another day - whispering pleas to the one who carried me to please do it again tomorrow. Sleep comes quickly - so does morning.. too quickly.. I am seeing numbers on the clock I was hoping not to see for a few more months. Husbands work hours have stretched long, attitudes of children remind me of my call to train and make me weep with the uncertainty. Are they getting it at all? Body and mind weary late in pregnancy.
Calender demanding that I keep going, life demanding that I keep going.
I hate the struggle - but it is good for me to find refuge in God. He is always there
He does not forget that I am made from dust, and so He is not surprise at my tendency to return there.
How loving and patient He is, how gentle He is to those who call out to Him in need.
He is a Rock - a steady and unmoving place.
He is a sure shelter when Life beats Hot or when storms threaten to destroy.
And anything that causes my eyes to turn away from Me is mercy and kindness.
I haven't been able to get away from this song -
and it's relevance and truth.
And I keep writing them down -
I write them through Hot tears, but they are still gifts.
204- house to be fixed
205- Prayers answered with "No"
206- Lessons in waiting
207- An easier bedtime
208- My own neediness
227- Calm after the storm
228- tears of release
229- victory in thanksgiving
238- My exchange of sin for clean
243- a new dawn
244- a husbands means of providing
246- God sees me
247- God hears me
248- God knows me
249- God values me
253- Jesus loves me - He is my friend
254- Hot tears
255- Knees bent in dependence
256- Found Grace